Well that turned out to be utter bullshit. Yes, perceptions do change as you grow up…your morals change, values change, outlook changes..but to such an extent? Things which you were so staunchly against, things which were against your principles, things which you resolved never to do in your lifetime, become so mundane and ordinary. I thought people who take drugs are ‘bad people’ and now some of my best friends smoke up all the time. I thought coming first in class was the be all and end all of my existence…and now…well, I would not like to comment on my scores.. Lol. I’m not questioning myself. Neither am I wondering what went wrong with me…I don’t think anything did. I guess this is just part of growing up. I was just looking into some old slam books today, and I saw what I used to be like..even 1 year ago! College sure does change people.

I wanted to be and do so many things as a kid. I wanted the world at my feet. I was to be pious, religious and a good kid. I just kept wanting, dreaming, hoping….but things have turned out so differently. At the end of the day, all I can say is, I’m so happy I am what I am right now, it’s hard to imagine. Atleast I am me and not what everyone wanted me to be, or a stupid idealistic picture I painted of myself in my head.. I love the paths I have chosen, the paths I have been forced to choose (due to lack of choice ), and the way ahead. It’s ok if you’re not what you always wanted to be, as a person, or as in a profession, or anything. At the end of the day…whatever makes you happy.

Oh, and by the way, Rahul change my blog please. It’s not the old one, it’s now www.ataxia.wordpress.com

Thanks.

well here it goes .. life is a series of many expected as well as unexpected tasks which we have to face, revert back to etc. it helps u to get experiences which furthermore helps to lead this journey in a way to fulfill many responsibilities in different ways. in short life is very unpredictable. u juss dont come to know what good or bad wud happen to you next and what in the past would help u in the future. its very confusing for some too. its an amalgamation of deep happiness and deep sadness. life which is under the control of god as well as that being in two different aspects: creation and implementing. ther are many a things abt this journey which are controlled by god, but most of them are implemented by us for our betterment which needs to be understood with intellect. life is a treasure if u really explore the most ov it thru ur potential. sum take it as a very beautiful gift while some take it as a very normal attribute. but at the end what really matters is the level of the positive u need to explore out of it to enjoy it really. and for those who really don’t know its value, juss remember: its only we who r lucky enuf that we’re in this world. so just try to make use of this one life. furthermore, life is a blend of various relations having various bases and these have to be fulfilled as a resposibility with the unconditional. its too complicated to be understood. cheers

The article goes something like this :

…There was a woman in Mahatma Gandhi’s life with whom he had contemplated ‘spiritual’ marriage. Rajmohan Gandhi’s recent book on the Mahatma more than hinted at this alliance. V.N. Datta, a historian who has been researching this relationship, talks to The Tribune and attempts to reconstruct the strong bond between Gandhi and Saraladevi, a niece of Rabindranath Tagore

Who was Saraladevi Chowdharani and how did she impact the life of one of India’s greatest sons, Mahatma Gandhi? She stares poignantly out of the early 20th century black and white pictures, clad in rich silk sarees and her black hair flowing loose…

Click here to read the full article.

Mahatma’s not such a Mahatma after all eh… shows the weakness of his character! Well just goes to show that even he wasn’t perfect. I’m not saying Gandhi was bad. Everybody gets tempted in some way or the other and even he was human.

But this article also raised a very important question in my mind. Are arranged marriages really feasible? I mean, do they really work? My parents had an arranged marriage, its rock-solid. But such articles force you to think.

In Gandhi’s case, both he and his wife were 13 years old when they got married. Not only was it a case of arranged marriage but also child marriage. Gandhi had not met Kasturba before. His marriage was fixed and he was married off. That is how arranged marriages work. Although there have been significant changes in the process but still it is majorly the same.

Then later on during his life, Gandhi came in contact with Saraladevi. Not only was there strong liking between the two but there was a lot of physical attraction involved as well (as stated in the article). Had Gandhi been given the choice to marry the girl he wanted, maybe he would’ve never gotten into this mess. Maybe…

What are your views?

tears are the best frnd of a person. wen u have NO1 wid u……….ABSOLUTLY NO1, UR NOT ALONE, u have ur tears. pppl say crying does no good, i say crying does all the good.it washes the grief in our heart, it makes u feel light……..

at the end it is these who r wid u wen no1 is wid u.

i may not be making ny sense of wat i am writnig,maybe repeating wat i am writing……but i just wantd to, coz there is no other way out!

(sorry adminstrator!)

Yes, two hotties along with a gay looking bloke entered the Prime Minister’s residence, 7 RCR (Race Course Road). They drove up to the main gate in a black Sonata which bore the registration number “DL4C V 0006“. The security personnel outside the main gate let the three in without checking anything!! Maybe they were intimidated by the three zeroes in the registration number !

I mean, its totally cool. The girl drove the car to the area where the VIP’s get down from their cars (I think) - the second gate. Thats where the security people refused to let them in. Even then, no one stopped them. A very hot looking chick got down from the back, took out her cellphone & made a call (in short, posed for the cameras). They reversed the car and while driving at a speed of about say 5 kmph, the girl on the driver’s seat blew flying kisses at the cameras!! Awesome!! A totally “vellah” reporter, Rahul Srivastav of NDTV actually followed the car and interviewed the driver. She was not hesistant and coolly gave the interview. The three are from Jaipur and had come to Delhi to spend their holiday. The hotties are working with Sahara Airlines as Air Hostess’.

Now the police are looking into the matter. What man… they were just a bunch of drunk kids… let them go… question the security personnel instead.

They just “jokingly” went inside cause they wanted to “meet the PM and discuss something”. OK… even I wanna meet the Governor. Any hotties ready to accompany me ?? But wait… I’m just allowed to drive a Maruti 800… what the fuck… I have no chance of getting my 15 seconds of fame !

Maybe this was supposed to be a secret meeting between the PM and the hotties but the media ruined the party. Man… the PM sure is lucky… hot girls come to meet him and that too at night. Lage raho Manu Bhai!!!

• Security breach at PM’s residence - CNN-IBN
• Security breach at PM’s residence - NDTV

Update : The NDTV correspondent has interviewed both the girls. The names are : Yogita (the driver), Veena (the poser) and Imran (the gay). Veena is definitely the hotter of the two and all three of them were drunk. Yogita was blowing kisses and waving like a freak, Veena didn’t know her cleavage was there for all to see on national television and Imran… well Imran knew nothing. He was dazed and didn’t know what was happening. Veena admitted on camera that it was just a silly prank and was inquiring from the reporter if it was serious and would they be sent to jail for this act. The security breach happened around 8.45 PM. The PMO (Prime Minister’s Office) says that this is not a security breach. People are allowed to go upto the reception. The journalists and other so-called experts don’t agree though.

UPDATE 1 :
The lastest comment by Jaskiran on this entry got posetd in the first post. Another error.

Installed WP again. Went through a lot of pain in the process because WP kept giving errors and the blog was down all the time. I am not changing the theme as of now. Please report any errors.

I am keeping my fingers crossed!

UPDATE 2 :
I couldn’t control myself so I changed the theme. Reply here or just anywhere to submit a bug report.

UPDATE 3 :
The theme change didn’t work. I’m sticking with the default theme. Learn to live with it, it ain’t that bad!!

You might have made it to college because your dad had connections, you had spare money in the backyard, there weren’t much applicants for the course you applied for, nobody else turned up for counselling or may be on the sole base of merit! Whatever be the reason, it’s a past now. Nobody’s going to care how charming, cute and intelligent you were in your growing years in the high school. There are better things people would ask and want to know from you. So here’s Harry’s ultimate Guide to College for you. Keep it safe, read it in the loo or distribute copies to friends I don’t care. Follow the rules and live in peace.

++ Ragging: Till now you’ve seen it only in the bollywood flicks or heard about it from your dear cousins. It’s time to face the music. Ragging in Indian colleges isn’t the same as it used to be with the Government imposing strict bans and making it a punishable offence. But that doesn’t make your seniors a chicken. So be a sport, go ahead and sing or dance to enjoy a little. If it gets raw, the meat needs to be cooked up! My advice, don’t get rude with the seniors straight away. Some of them would eventually be kind and friendly to you. There would still be some naughty kids around, don’t spare them at all!

++ Boyfriends/Girlfriends: First things first. High school is over. Get over the dream, move up! College will be the time when you’ll be exposed to a wide variety from the opposite sex and the old high school crush can wait or if you’ve been thrown into a non co-ed college, God help you! Remember it’s your first week. First month. Don’t be an early Romeo or a Juliet. Make your image, make your mark and wait. You’re in college now so interaction with the opposite sex will surely ignite someone’s interest in you sometime or the other. In case you’re one of my kind who are not interested in any one at college then admire the library.

++ Classrooms: These are small rooms with some uncomfortable tables and chairs packed with fans rotating at their own merry will and a black board in the front where everyone is supposed to look at for the entire fifty minutes. The best way to concentrate is to imagine the black board as the silver screen. Imagine you’re watching your favourite movie. Or you could imagine your professor dressed up as King Kong and simply beating his chest and shouting for no valid reason. You won’t have to worry much about these are these would be the rooms you’ll hardly visit over the next couple of years.

++ Labs: These are smelly rooms created to impart some practical knowledge into our innocent minds. The only things I learnt in labs was to blow up test tubes and shiny beakers with a cocktail of acids! There’s nothing much you can do in these surroundings, so bunk it off!

++ Canteens/Cafeteria: Your professor might complain of your attendance falling short of the minimum amount but the canteen waiter won’t! Here’s the heaven where you’ll not only feed your hungry tummy but also dare stares at the hunks and the hotties! A prefect place gup-shup over a spicy smosa and cola. And if cupid has already struck then this might be the very shrine where you’ll get to worship you mate!

++ Entry/Exit points: Mark my words, this would be the most important thing to learn in college. You must be aware of all the entry and exit points at college. Why? You’ll answer this to yourself pretty soon!

Finally, just chill! Enjoy yourself but don’t go too easy. Make sure you do keep up with the studies while still enjoying college.

Even I have been affected because the original Uthfull is hosted on Geocities. OK… I don’t visit or update that site anymore but still I don’t want it to be blocked because of the Indian Govt.’s foolishness.

I could write a lot about this ban but why should I when everything is already here and here. Alternatively, you can use goo gle to get more information.

• List of banned websites
• Bypassing the ban

- A nicely written tutorial.

I have a few other tricks for people to browse the web somewhat anonymously and browse banned sites.
You see, most of the internet http proxies use a software called CGIProxy. Now keeping in mind some things typical of that program, we can use google to find hundreds of free http proxies to access the banned sites and the web anonymously.

Here are the direct links to the search results :

• Search Results 1
• Search Results 2
• Search Results 3

Now I used to visit one of the banned sites ( http://mypetjawa.mu.nu/ ) which I think is down. Here’s the Google Cache. If I remember correctly, this site used to show videos of people being beheaded in Iraq by millitants (yup, that’s how I discovered it).

Some sites say the ban will be lifted in another 48 hours but who cares.

If you want to just access your own blog hosted on blogger, use this site.

I was about to setup a http proxy of my own but then I discovered this trick.
Enjoy!!

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