The Melting Pot

l.o.l.

There are moments in life - moments of unparalleled horror, moments when reality attempts to sink in, moments of unbearable pain, moments of absolute blankness, moments of staggered comprehension, moments of uncontrolled, erratic tears, moments we don’t want as a part of our life, moments which we are forced to live, moments which bring situations that have to be accepted - moments of loss of life (l.o.l.). Then follow more moments - momemts of shocking agony, moments of struggling with acceptance, moments of discovering non-existent logic, moments of tearing mind debates, moments of incontrovertibly senseless quarrels, moments of tears flowing freely into the wee hours of the night, the dawn of which has nothing better to offer - moments of accepting loss of life (l.o.l.).
Time doesn’t heal, it never does, it just covers up and eases. There’s nothing in life you can’t deal with, except thoughts. They can overpower you, if you let them. They have to be given into, if anyone is to function at all, but, in these moments, you’d rather they never existed. Yet, they must be dealt with and not locked up inside. You have to trust that they’ll settle down and find their place - they will. It’s human nature.
These moments should not be reasoned wtih because they simply can not be reasoned with. It’s emotional turmoil beyond what one can endure. So, the tears become scarce, the smile returns, new causes for smiles are found and for want of them, old ones are reverted to. Though they tug somewhere else too, you’re surprised to find that they can still be reasons to smile and you feel better.
Guilt comes naturally, it’s part of trying to reason with life’s numbing events, which bring everything to a sickeningly grinding halt, which ensure that everything and anything else assumes negligible significance. Allow guilt to be felt so that you may possibly discover where you could have improved, but don’t let it rule you or it will ruin you. And remember, these moments of loss of life (l.o.l.) can not be reasoned with.
Others can’t exactly comprehend your loss or pain, it’s foolish to think they can. Even if they’ve been through the same thing, it’s not exactly the same, it can’t be. Accept their support but deal with it your way, whichever way you think is the best. And, believe me, you love, you lose and you move on.